Why? But …Why?

I feel you are looking at me,

Sitting there you see me cry,

Why? But …Why?

I stood by you,

And prayed to you,

Why? But…Why?

Why this betrayal? Why this life?

I stayed with you all my life,

Why? But…Why?

Answer me while I try,

To make up while I break up,

With myself and this murkier tryst,

Why? But…Why?                   

I believed in you, I abided in you,

But, you are breaking me today …

Why? But…Why?                   

I need you to talk, I want you to show,

Where didn’t I try? Where did I lie?

Why? But…Why?

I was nothing but a child,

I didn’t know then but I do know now,

You choose for me a path for my heart,

 Why? But…Why?

But, I thought you always choose the right,

Why did you make me kind? You moulded my mind!!!

Why? But…Why?

Why? But…Why did you forsake one for the other?

I wait for your turn to make up for the other…

The spell of time has brought about this other….

Why? But…Why?

I wait for you for the sake of my dues,

Let me know…Oh…please let me know

Why? But…Why?

Breaking

I’m breaking…bit by bit and piece by piece….

I never gave up, but I have started to now….

Hope was never a problem but, I hate it now…

I don’t want it to come near me…please don’t touch me!!!

I was destined to be what I’m today…

I was cursed to be what I’m today… .

I want to be where I’m today….

I love it because I finally have you today!!!

Echo

I’m wordless today and haven’t felt so poor before,

I don’t know where to start and where to end,

I ‘m feeling like an empty trunk of a tree,

I think I never had a heart before,

But, I’m smiling on and off thou,

I am gross at myself; I want to be cruel to myself,

I want to forgive me but, I can’t let it be,

The road I lost gets back on track,

The memories I forgot gets flashed back,

The days of laugh echo back!!!!!

Games, Greatness and Gratefulness….and God

I always thought a game makes you come out, know yourself and give your best shot;

I always thought greatness was a trait you achieve as you trod along living life;

I always thought gratefulness is a feeling we have for moments of worth;

What I forgot was each of this word starts with a “G”…..and you too God have played the greatest game with me and left me to feel the gratefulness of it!!!

The flight of the enlightened heart

A heart which touched me with its tenderness,

A heart which saw me with a glowing flame,

A heart which made me smile with its warmth,

A heart as pure as white and a sight like gold,

Took a path to discover life!!!

I lost it here and I lost it there,

But, I never felt the need to hear,

The heart did beat, the heart did speak,

It took its breadth, it took the stretch,

I denied it then but, I was naïve upfront,

I didn’t know my own heart, I made it pass!

There it grew and it did flew…….but,

I never saw the flight of the enlightened heart!

Letters, words, sentences, paragraphs, pages, books…

As tiny as a letter could explain,

As small as a word could count,

As long as a sentence could stand,

As big as a paragraph can withstand,

As far as the pages can turn,

As voluminous as the books can weigh,

Does your love grow to be……………………..

The purity of life

I hear the sound of your heart; it beats to the tinkling of the anklets I adorn!

I see the smile on your face; it completes itself with the crack of my laughter!

I smell you unknowing; that our heart and mind mingles at that very moment!

You take my hand; and I let you to dance me to the music of your heart!

You tell me that you love me; but I forget you even with tears in your eyes!

You showed me the purity of life; which I remember today with all that I have!

A Mojito this Afternoon

You came up this afternoon and dazzled me light!                         

I surprised myself!  A stint with you did make things bright!

You came up iced, crushed and brushed; you came in flavoured, all mint and lime!

Sparkling in sheets of water, you winked at me “Shiny”, Oh mine!

Neither did you let me float nor did you make me bolt!

You made me stir, you made me right!

A Mojito this Afternoon turned the day into night!

To make me flicker with flames as pure as white!!

RECIPE ---

Ingredients – 1/2 tsp icing sugar, Juice of 1/2 lime, 4 fresh

mint leaves, Crushed ice, 60 ml Bacardi rum/vodka/gin, 

Soda water.

Preparation method – In a tall glass, stir icing sugar and

lime juice together. Slightly crush the mint leaves and add 

to glass. Fill glass with crushed ice, add rum/vodka/gin and

 stir. Add soda water to fill glass (or to taste), and garnish 

with more fresh mint.

Eighteen

I imagined a danger sign, I accepted it and read the notice…..It said “walk with love in this direction!”…I looked at the time…it blinked just 18….but, yes it never said…18 seconds, 18 minutes, 18 hours, 18 days, 18 weeks, 18 months, 18 years, 18 decade, 18 centuries, 18 lives…………I took the hidden path……I nurtured love and have taken care of it!!!!!!!!! 

WAR

The clouds bring curiosity and so the future,

Winds of a grave land, speak up at every caress,

Prophecy, presumption and precision gain speed,

Instincts become swords and words become roars,

The white of dawn breaks the shackles of black,

Far from us breaks the soulS of WAR………………..

A Prayer

A part of me feels so complete, so full, that it just doesn’t matter to desire now!!

My hands come together to worship you, with such gratitude, what I see seems too picture perfect!!

Neither can I move ahead nor can I look back!! It seems like eternity!! I feel senseless!!

Thank you for fulfilling my dream, through time you wheeled, with prayers you healed!!

And then two tiny hands grab me, a smile waked me, a touch warmed me,

And now life takes a new turn, my thoughts make a beginning…………..Be with me Infant of Prague,

As I loose myself to you again, for I have no retreat, for I have nothing but, you again!

I have forgotten much and gained much! And somewhere in-between lost me much!!

This prayer is for me and only me, for it is me that needs it more this time!!

I cannot breathe, I cannot weave, and this life is what I cannot seize!!

Be with me; walk with me as I re-begin, as I live,

Be with me Infant of Prague!!